Control

I have been told for years that fire and EMS is full of type A people. I would agree but always thought I was an exception. Still do for the most part but am seeing more of it in recent days. For the past 20 weeks or so (ok, maybe not quite that long) I have been discovering that I have a control issue. I like it. Some control makes sense. If you are in my squad and stop breathing I take over control of that for you. Good thing. Your house is on fire? We take control of the situation and fire and put it out. See control is a good thing. I think that all homeschool parents are guilty of this to some extent. After all isn't that why we are beating our brains out with the Rainbow Resource catalog?? Because we want to CONTROL what our children learn?? Please tell me that is not just me!! :D I always thought that I did pretty well with the "this is out of my control" situations. Until now. We go in to the doctor today and find out what Baby B is, assuming there is cooperation on it's part. If they are in any way like their big brother there will be no problem. :) This is driving me nuts!! No it's not just the "I can't wait till we know so I can shop accordingly" thing, although that is part of it. It's more of a "What if it's a girl? Then what?" kind of thing. You see I grew up an only child. I never had to share my room with ANYBODY until college and then my roommate was hardly there and I even had a private room for half of it. So realistically I started sharing when I got married. My brain is having problems figuring out where we will put this new person and all the stuff they come with. How do I make a 5 year old suddenly give up part of "his" room? Would I really have to do dance class and stuff like that??!?!?! I lived in that world as a nanny and NEVER want to deal with dance moms again!! I have NO control over what we find out today.... I'm just not sure how to handle that.